wanna see it?

For some reason I think you might be interested in seeing the wreckage of my ankle and what it looks like. Because I'm weird like that. I took these photos myself, so he angles are limited. This first one is of both feet so you can compare the swollen to the regular one. I'm kind of amazed at how the entire foot has swollen, not just around the ankle. My toes look like five little sausages, and it's all so red and purpleish.

And here you can see my ankle on the unbroken side, how that dark purple bruise wraps right around my ankle and goes all the way under the Cat in the Hat's foot. Please try to ignore the bad tattoo. I was going to get it redone this year - seriously - but now I'm afraid to let anything near that ankle for awhile. It looks like even my entire heel is bruised, which doesn't surprise me, because that's what it feels like, too.

And then here we have the break itself. Note the giant swollen area, the bruise that because of the tattoo is hard to see is completely yellow now (good, means it's healing). That large bit of dark purple on the bottom there is where the wraparound bruise begins. Difficult to tell, but again, it wraps all the way around my ankle. Don't mind the scar through Pooh's face, that was from a car accident when I was about to turn 18.

And last but not least we have my view of the ankle. That yellow you see? That's the bruise. It goes fairly far up the leg. Lovely, no?

The pain comes and goes, and every day is different in my healing. Some days are great, and I'm able to keep my leg down most of the day, allowing it to swell a bit and get the blood flowing to it. Other days are just painful no matter what, and I have to keep it elevated more, which means more time on the sofa, which means Kiernen spends lots of time watching videos on the computer. He thinks he likes that, but it's making him stir crazy, and it really is getting to him. Too much screen time affects the brain, it really does. He won't go outside with anyone but me or his Daddy, so until Daddy gets home, he is all cooped up in here with me. 

It is a very stressful time for all of us right now - I couldn't have picked a worse time to injure myself this way - what with the garden wanting to be planted and the bees coming and the hives needing building and there actually being sunshine outside and us needing that sun and fresh air so desperately after winter. 

Universe, what message are you sending me? Because I'm not getting it.

dem bones, dem bones

Yep, the ankle is broken. I managed to creak of the end of the tibula, SNAP!

I was walking along the path from the trampoline to the building in which I live, and right when I got to the end of the path I had a bit more spring in my step. When I came down on my foot, it rolled under and I felt the SNAP as I went down. I knew it was broken, and I called for my hubby  (still at the trampoline) to take me to the hospital. Immediately around me were my wonderful neighbours - MG, who brought me water when all the blood left my body and went to my ankle; V, who came with ice and ace bandages and bandaged my ankle; V and N bringing me homeopathics; N bringing  blankets and a van; K, N, my hubby and H lifting me into the van; M and E accompanying us to the hospital so E could keep Kiernen calm and M could take me home if my hubby needed to take Kiernen home. And that was just last night.

And wow, what an amazing place to be hurt. I imagine I'll heal so fast with all of this love and support!

Then today HL brought food over - the most amazing beef stew I've ever tasted - and then all these offers left and right from neighbours to cook us food or run errands or even pick up the elusive wheelchair...WOW. I have SO much appreciation for this community!!!

I'm not allowed to put any pressure on it for 10 days, then I go get a second x-ray in ten days and we'll see. I THINK that at some point I'll be able to walk on it in the boot, but right now I'm staying off of it. We're currently looking for a wheelchair that can have my LEFT leg elevated, and oddly, every place we've called or gone to today has had only RIGHT-side ones.

Tomorrow we'll call some more places. We still haven't managed to reach the red cross, so that might be an option.

 I feel strongly that I will heal quickly - N has me on a supplemental regimen that worked for him - plus our diet is for stengthening bones, so I bet I heal in record time.Also of note, Louise Hay says of ankles: "Inflexibility and guilt. Ankles represent the ability to receive pleasure." The affirmation for it is: "I deserve to rejoice in life. I accept all the pleasure life has to offer."

Interestingly, I must be blind to my own life, because I am just not sure where this applies. And so I will also be contemplating and using EFT on this, as well.