Heightened Intuition and Loving my Body (Medical Medium Style)

This one's a video post of me talking about my new and improved relationship with my body. Please click the video to view. Thanks!

I started a YouTube Channel about my Medical Medium Healing Journey

I have been wanting to do this for 18 months now - start a YouTube channel documenting my Medical Medium Healing Journey. Because changes you can see! or something like that. I had so many reasons and things hold me back, all to do with me myself and I, and anxiety. It's so scary to put yourself out there. What if I do it wrong? And I thought I had to have things polished like a proper YouTuber, edited and looking just so.

But look at my wonderful friend Heather's channel, the Butterfly Effect Plant-Based Weight Loss. She just goes on there, unedited, herself, and talks about her progress, and her channel is amazing. She has inspired and helped SO many people to go plant-based, and she has created an entire community for herself around her channel. She is now supporting others in their journey - and that is what I want to do, too. I want to support others in their healing journies. I want to help them when they struggle, and sheer them on, and share what I've learned these past 18 months.

And I finally overcame whatever it was that was holding me back, and I did it. So without further ado, I present to you, my first YouTube video about Medical Medium and my healing journey. The first of many to come. Please like, comment, and subscribe, and ask me questions in the comments, so I can answer them in future videos.

Bye Felicia! Or Kicking Cold and Flu's Butt.

Hello my friends, my fellow healers, my chronic illness warriors, and how are you this fine November day?

Me? I'm BRILLIANT! I feel AH-MAY-ZING!

I just did this two week guided group cleanse based on Medical Medium principles. It was a super chill relaxed cleanse, and there were many of us in the group. It was run and organized in a way that despite the huge number of people, no one was left behind - everyone's questions got answered by a super knowledgeable team, we all supported each other too, and the recipes and meal plans were simply DELICIOUS, my whole family loved them!

I cannot tell you what happened in the cleanse, because it was a sacred space, what happens in the cleanse stays in the cleanse. But I CAN talk about what happened for ME and how I'm feeling afterwards.

My goals for the cleanse were to take my fat to the next level of lower, to release a couple of foods I'd still been holding on to that weren't hurting me per se, but weren't furthering my healing either. I want everything I eat to nourish and feed my body in a healthy healing way.

I not only accomplished those two goals with ease, but I also learned SO MUCH about the way we heal, the way we release toxins, and I even made some new friends along the way. Pretty awesome, right? And I noticed something about myself. With each new layer of healing, I become more sensitive to my body's needs, and to what's happening inside it. It's like I'm deepening my relationship with my body.

That might sound esoteric, but here's an example. I've come to know without a doubt the very first signs that a new virus, like a cold or flu, is in me and trying to take hold. I don't mean signs that others would notice because it's obvious, but very slight signs that are inside, but I've come to know them as "it's here". For me that's a very slight achiness in my shoulders, feeling run down just a little bit, and sometimes there will be a little tickle in my throat or sinuses. If the virus gets to take hold, all of those things will intensify, of course, with all of the other symptoms that come with cold or flu. 

However, I've learned to, at the very first sign, start releasing my arsenal upon it, and usually, I will triumph, and the virus will not take hold. Case in point, this last week towards the end of the cleanse, I started to feel its presence. So I got my zinc and did three droppers to the back of the throat (so disgusting, I cannot even tell you, but damn, it WORKS, so I power through). Then I juiced a tiny bit of fresh turmeric (I react if I use too much, it's really powerful for me), a knob of ginger and two oranges. Drink that down with lots of loud "woo!"s afterward because that ginger has a kick! Woo! Follow all that with my regular supplement and tincture regimen. Repeat the former every couple of hours throughout the day, of course also including other juices, smoothies, healing teas and healing foods as required.

This one was a toughie, because usually the initial zinc to the back of the throat will take it out and that will be that, but this one was a boss - it needed the big guns. So two days of this, then also having completely interrupted sleep for one of the nights....and last night I went to bed WAY early, and slept for something like 12 hours. Unheard of for me! But I woke up today feeling FANTASTIC! I kicked that thing's butt to the curb! Bye Felicia! Of course I will continue my arsenal for another day just to be sure. But wow! I love having the tools and information  I need to fully support myself and my healing. I cannot even tell you how amazing it feels.

And as for how I feel after this cleanse? I feel lighter - spiritually and physically, I feel more empowered, and I feel ready to continue - because I'm about to jump into a 3.5 month program called "Detox Mastery" with many of the same people. It's really like I unlocked a part of myself I haven't seen in a long while - and I'm so happy to have her (me) back! I'll try to explain. 

I used to LOVE preparing food. As I am happiest when I am creating something with my hands, preparing food fed my creativity as well as my body and soul. Back when I was 80-90% raw for over a year and living in a cohousing community, one of my great joys was making all of this amazing delicious food and sharing it with friends in the community. It lit me up.

That light dulled when I switched to GAPS - at the time I thought it was the best way to heal my son, and so off our family went to this way of eating. Same when we switched to Paleo, then by the time we got to autoimmune Paleo I'd lost the ability to prepare food altogether. I'd give my husband recipes and he'd make the food, but it was all so practical, not beautiful colorful dishes full of vibrant life. Well, if you've been following along my healing journey (which you can read about here if you haven't and are curious), you know I regained the ability to prepare food when I began my Medical Medium journey.

But it wasn't until this past week that my love for it returned, and the light came back. I just noticed it was there again, and I'm again loving being in the kitchen and finding new and wonderful things to create for my family - foods I would be proud to share again. I've been soaking and sprouting and creating and finding all sorts of delicious ways to prepare my foods, and being in the kitchen hasn't felt like a chore at all - it's felt like a gift again, like I have my creative mojo back. My family couldn't be happier, let me tell you.

I can't wait to see what the next three and a half months have to show me. Three and a half months of deep study, introspection, meditation, mindfulness with my food, emotional upheaval possibly. I'm ready for it now. I've reached that level of healing where I AM ready to take it to the next level, so we shall see. Right now I feel great, I'm raring to go, I feel peaceful and centered and powerful. Woo!

I Went and Popped Some Tags!

The other day I had such an amazing #victorycheck that I was buzzing from the high of it the whole day! Another level of healing reached, folks, it just keeps getting better!

When I go out into the world, I still go out as a chronically ill human to a degree - I always have another adult with me just in case, I usually have anxiety about going to new places - even with my family. It's just a part of having lived a life with chronic illness for so many years - even though I am healing, everything is still all in baby steps.

I'm still at home most of the time, because healing is my full time job - I need to be at home to prepare food, to make sure things happen in their regular routine, to make sure I listen to and care for my body properly, to get enough rest. It's not that I NEVER go out, it's just that going out generally takes a deal of preparation beforehand, I don't generally "just go out really quickly" and definitely not spontaneously. At the very least a cooler needs to be filled with fruit and drinks need to be on hand for hydration for anywhere longer than an hour outside of my home.

And that works for me right now, it's a good thing. I'm happy with that and I feel good about how things work.

My husband does a lot of the grocery shopping and errand running, because he is much more used to being in the world and gets less exhausted by it - and most of the places we get food are also really conveniently located close to where my husband works, so it's easy for him to just run out at lunch or after work on the way home.

But the other day my son pre-ordered a video game he was super excited to get, and they are almost always released on a Friday. My son of course wants to go pick up said game as soon as the store opens, which is 10 AM - while my husband is at work.

 So it was up to me, and I felt like I could do it. We drove the half hour to Best Buy, just my son and myself (we since learned there's a closer one but no big deal, we'll know for next time). In the past, electronics stores have just been a big no for me - I couldn't even enter them with a mask on from all of the plastics, EMFs and radiation happening in there - there are certain electronics stores I couldn't even be in the parking lot of, my body would receive so much damage from being near them (Fry's).

But I've been healing. I've been filling my body with healing foods almost exclusively. I've been doing so much work, and I've been feeling so much better. And that day I felt like I could do it. It bears mentioning that it's been months since I've worn my Vogmask anywhere, to the point where I've at times even left my purse at home - my purse that contains the masks and my EpiPen most importantly. Because I haven't needed them, I haven't needed my mask to enter a building in months! Even Target, which tends to be really difficult for me. Even Costco, with all of the tires and electronics....no mask. AH-MAY-ZING!

I'm thinking I'll just go into this Best Buy, we'll get the game at the front of the store where you pick up orders, and we'll go - no lingering, I ought to be able to handle that. And we DID go in and pick up the game - and I'll say it was surprising just HOW good I felt - like I was in SUCH a great space! I was chatting with the employees who checked me out - they were so friendly too - and I felt ZERO anxiety. Double take on that one, because it's unheard of for me - NO anxiety whatsoever.

!!!!!

And THEN I needed to use the restroom (I drink SO many juices and smoothies and teas! LOL), which as it turns out was at the very back of the store. Okay, I'll just bolt through, I mean as much as I can bolt - which means walk fast really. But I didn't need to. I was noticing that I wasn't feeling affected like I have in the past - I was still fine. And when I came out of the restroom, we actually even browsed a little bit and found a plush my son had been wanting, so we got that, too.

And when I left that store, I was feeling great about the whole experience, because I'm so very aware of what I had just accomplished there. Again, before the Medical Medium protocols, before the healing plants, there was just no way I could have even left the house, let alone do all that I just did, with no other adults.

And then we were going to hit a second store, which I quickly realized was in the mall, and we decided to find another location for that one....but in the meanwhile I spotted a thrift store and I just decided to take a look. I've been looking for a couple of items that I knew I could find in the right thrift store, and this was one we hadn't yet tried. And I was feeling SO good...

So I did it. And not only was I able to go in and be inside that thrift store, but I was able to browse, and find not only the items I was looking for, but a couple of cool scores for my kiddo as well (who was out in the car playing his new game). I even bought the first items and came out, got him from the car and convinced him to go back in with me to see if he wanted the things I'd found. So I went in TWICE and stayed long enough to browse through the store. And no brain fog, no migraine, no headache at all, no feeling sick or losing my ability to breathe. None of the things that would have happened before.

My body is healing! Another layer of achievement unlocked! I can thrift again! I'm gonna pop some tags...woot!

I was on cloud nine after that, for the rest of the day. I did that! Me! That was so huge! I was so proud of myself! No anxiety! No other symptoms! No crash the next day! No crash even when we got home! Each time I try a new thing that I'd lost, I'm able to do it! And I seem to intuitively know when I can, too. So I'm regaining trust - with myself and the world. That's gigantic. That's miraculous.

I wish I could thank every employee I interacted with at both Best Buy and Savers, because they were all so incredibly friendly and helpful. I know they probably have no idea how much that means, and how much of a positive impact they had on me that day, how much they helped me reintegrate into the world again, and take those steps. I wish I could tell them how important it was. They were like angels helping to make my way back into the world and make it as easy and pleasant as possible.

Well, I'm telling YOU, whomever is reading this. The fact that they were friendly and kind and chatty with me, that was huge. It helped me so much. And maybe it was also because I was in such a good space that day, it just felt like the stars aligned for me, to make everything work. Knowing that I could do that makes me know I can do other things too. It's so wonderful to see this healing in action!

Sometimes I still cannot believe my life. I'm still blown away that I am healing a whole page of diagnoses that the medical community - allopathic and alternative - had no idea how to help. I'm still amazed and awed that I can do these things again, at how much health is returning. I'm so so grateful for all of it. To myself for listening to that voice telling me to do this. To Anthony William, the Medical Medium, for literally sacrificing any semblance of a normal life to take on this gift for US, to get the information out there that WE CAN HEAL. For my finding and being able to read his book despite all of the brain fog at that time. For the whole community of people who are also healing this way, and for the social media that connects us. I have never found a more supportive or helpful community of humans in my life - all connected by one thing - healing chronic illness.

Sometimes life really is good, and I'm so happy that I still have the ability to see that.

Healing in Unexpected Places

Protip: Do NOT do an image search for "mole on my bum".
Cannot unsee. Can. Not. Unsee. 

I just had to post a little update because I noticed something new that healed. It's something I was hoping would go away, hoping would heal, but it was one of the "least of my worries" so to speak. I had this mole underneath my bum, where my bum meets my leg. It was one - I've never seen it, mind you, but it stuck out and felt like a skin tag of some sort. I could pull at it and get it in my fingers but I couldn't get rid of it. I haven't always had it, either - it just appeared one day a few years ago and wouldn't leave my body. I hated it, but it was a minor nuisance compared to all of the other health condtions I had going on.

The other day I reached down to the area where that mole is and.....it wasn't there. I thought, "Am I feeling the wrong side? Is it on the other side?" I reached to the other side and nothing, so I felt for it again where I always remembered it to be. Nothing there. I was quite surprised, so I had my husband take a look, and he confirmed that now just looked like a little flat mole, like the other "little brown dots" I have on my arms. It's gone! I don't care about a little brown dot, that horrid skin tag sticking up mole is gone!!!

I just remembered I also have one on my head that's more solid, and that one has always been there that I remember anyway. I felt that one and it's shrinking too - now instead of something I can get my fingers around, it just feels like a little bump, like a mosquito bite or something.

Also, I don't know if it will be noticable to anyone but me, but I've been losing weight as well. It took a long time for my liver to clear out enough that my body could finally start releasing fat - boy, did it. But finally, finally it is. I don't own a scale so I have no idea how much, but I can see my belly deflating, my clothes are loose, I can tie my kitchen apron tighter around my waist. 

These are not my toes. Mine are short and stubby.
But this simple action....we so take for granted. 

Oh, and another thing that has happened - I can cut my own toenails again! I wasn't able to for a long time because of my Dysautonomia/POTS - I'd get too dizzy trying to bend in a way that allowed me to reach them, and my body was in so much pain that I couldn't properly bring them up to a reachable level. It just didn't work for me to do it myself. So my husband was having to cut them for me. And it is so weird to have someone else cut your toenails when you're used to doing them yourself - it was not something I enjoyed at all. But now, no dysautonomia, no body pain to prevent free movement, and I can again reach, bend, cut my toenails myself! Ta-daa!

!!!

Holy schminolies. 

I just....how cool is that!?! Medical Medium healing protocol for the win! 

Those seemingly little things are huge. And that's progress -  that's healing. That's part of what eating healing foods, taking healing supplements, and knowing the root cause of all of my issues is doing for me. Knowing what each food does and how it helps me, knowing that my issues are viral and that they are being taken down by everything I eat or ingest, it's all a part of my healing. When we know what the root cause of our illness is, it allows the body to target that thing and heal more powerfully - faster even. All of it makes a difference, it all matters.

And each little step along the way is bigger than we know. That little mole? Huge that it's gone. Being able to cut my toenails myself? You don't know how much it means until you lose it. But I'm getting it all back, baby. Little by little, step by step. I'm reclaiming my health and my life, and it feels amazing when I can see physically that yes, look, this is still working, this is still happening. 

Hanging Out, Down the Street

Oh, here's something I haven't remembered to do in while - give an update, share my thoughts, any of that... What blog?

So much has happened that it's silly I haven't updated before this. Now I have to try and summarize it in a post!

We spent the summer in Wisconsin. We didn't intend to - we were going to visit a friend of the Boy's - an online friend. We'd met them at the Unschooling Conference earlier in the spring and since we were "close" (the conference was in Ohio), we decided to go for a proper visit. Timing wise we had a couple of weeks to kill before they'd be available so we decided to stop and visit one of MY online friends who I was itching to meet IRL. Well, my friend has two kids near in age to the Boy, and they CLICKED in such an amazing way.

The visit to the Boy's other friend turned into a disaster - I won't go into details because honestly I don't want to relive it, but it did NOT work out. The Boy asked if we could live in Wisconsin though, to be near the friends he clicked with. He was tired of traveling, tired of the inconsistent internet connection, tired of having half his stuff in storage and having to put everything away after he used it because we needed the bed to sleep in later and it was the only place he had to play.

He wasn't really keen on all of the exploring of new places that his Dad and I loved so much, and he wanted to be in a stationary house again. So we began to look for places to live and jobs for my husband in Wisconsin. Of all places. Not the West Coast where our hearts live, but Wisconsin where friends live. Friends we really connect with and that my son adores. 

So here we are. My husband found a job that pays what we need it to, we found an apartment we think we will like, and we're giving this place  a go for the next year. Why not? Kiddo needs some stability and I certainly can see the draw of having a full kitchen again, space to spread out and do things, and a full sized oven to bake in.

Which brings us to today. When we left, we put all of our extra belongings in storage in Oregon, which of course is where they still are. In order to retrieve them, we put the Husband on a plane early this morning. He's flying to Portland, picking up the moving truck, loading it up, then driving it back across the country. By himself. Which will take about 4-5 days.

The anxiety around this trip! Firstly, he and I haven't been apart for that long since we moved to Washington state in 2004. And that was for a week, and I stayed with friends until he arrived. It was just us, too - no children to worry about. Secondly the Boy has never been apart from his Dad like this in his whole life, so there is much sadness there. They are total buddies, too - they game together and play together and hang out and go for walks to talk about video games together. Five whole days for him is a long time to be without his Dad!

And of course his online friends are going to be offline this week, too, because they are visiting friends - the timing of this! Ack! We have two saving graces here - 1) We get to see our friends on Thursday. 2) Friday the new Yo-Kai Watch video game comes out, which is my son's very favorite game to play, especially with his Dad. And if all goes well, his Dad will be back Friday night. Fingers crossed!

Now I know that 4 days isn't a lot on the grand scheme of things, but right now for my son especially, it is a long time! And for me....well,  this will be the first time since way before my health tanked that I will be on my own like this. So much has changed since the last time we were apart for a week, and since  I was so sick as well. There's no way we could have done something like this 15 months ago - I wouldn't have been able to care for myself, let alone for my son. But here we are, my health drastically improved, able to take care if us again, and I know we'll be okay. It's a big step in so many ways.

And when my husband gets back, we'll be getting the apartment ready to move into, and we'll be moving in! Another huge step towards another new chapter in our lives. My son has never seen a big snowy winter before, or four distinctly separate seasons, so this will be an adventure for sure! Lakes that freeze and people ice skate on them??? Outside?!? Snow measures in feet instead of centimeters? And all winter? Oh my goodness.

Well, here we go...

Adrenal Experiment Derailed

Well, my adrenal experiment went awry, not because what was happening was bad, but because life happens, and life has been particularly challenging lately in external circumstances. And I just haven't been able to pay attention to keeping track of feeding my adrenals. Sorry, adrenals, I'll keep doing my best! 

In no particular order...

We find ourselves dealing with some logistical challenges to being able to live in this new area, which has been very stressful for us. Some things we thought would be improvements turned themselves into impediments...and it's getting tricky.

We found out that some friends back in the midwest were in a house fire and the wife was badly burned - 3rd degree over 70% of her body. Her condition is critical and their family is in my heart, prayers and thoughts constantly.

There was a day we went out for the day and I'd packed a cooler full of snacks to sustain us and my husband left it at home, and that same day there was an indicent with my trying to be in the grocery store by myself, and people lacking compassion, and that just set me back.

We had a tornado warning in the area, which was my son's first, since he grew up in the Pacific Northwest where the natural disaster du' jour would be either volcanoes erupting or earthquakes, none of which happened while we lived there. So the having to drop everything when the sirens sounded and head to the main clubhouse basement for shelter with all of the other park inhabitants did NOT amuse him at all. He was pretty freaked out. Muffins and Frenzie came, too, and that's the photo you're looking at up there. 

I've been having maybe extra detox with a supplement I'm taking and in addition to skin issues and brain fog a bit, I've also been having extra fatigue and pain in my body. Not cool, Cat's Claw! I'll be backing WAY down on you.

We're having a lot of feelings of loss about our family's direction. Where to live, how to go about it, what is the best thing for us right now.

I'm sure all of this nonsense is made worse by my not properly supporting my already depleted adrenals. My sleep has been bad, I cannot seem to get restful sleep. We cannot have the A/C on in the RV overnight for reasons, and the mugginess and heat seep in as we sleep are not helpful.

There are a lot of things about this area that really aren't working for me health-wise. And that sucks because my son really wants to hang  out with this family that lives here, and so do we.

It's been a struggle for us lately, one we are both processing and looking for ways to work through. So that left my adrenal experiment all wonky, because for the life of me I could NOT follow my phone alarms and just eat when I was supposed to.

However, I HAVE been managing at least ONE adrenal snack each day, which I will call progress, because I had pretty much let it slide before. And if you count my morning smoothie and my salads, I've really been managing three. And that's huge.

The adrenal experiment will happen! For now I'm just going to do my best and also do my best to report the results. 

Adrenal Experiment Day 3

Because it's still a lot for me to keep up with daily posts. I'm working on it. 

Day 2 I felt good all day - stronger, more energetic, more focused, less brain fog.

I managed to eat all of my adrenal snacks but one, I think. 

Toward the end of the day, which did prove to be a stressful day due to external circumstances, I did become irritable and grouchy. But like I said, stressful external circumstances.

Day 3 again, at a friend's house but still did all my adrenal snacks but one. Felt physically strong and clear, but I did also notice some difficulty in processing and connecting my mouth to my brain. As this hapens to me frequently, I cannot attribute it entirely to eating the snacks - it's a sign of neurological damage that I am still working to heal, and it will just take time. Maybe some detox going on with the damage coming out more.

Again with the stress, feeling frustrated, resigned, sad, unsure, put me in a bad place.

But again feeling physically well, more energy throughout the day, less of that crashing feeling.

Adrenal Experiment Day 1

Inspired by my experience with the adrenal snacks providing me with so much stability and revitalization the other day (and in the last whenever I've eaten them), I decided to do an experiment with myself. I've set alarms on my phone for every 1.5 hours to remind me to have an adrenal snack.

I've been eating plenty of fruits and veggies, and I have my salads and smoothies and celery juice daily, but I've been lax about having the adrenal snacks, only remembering to have them every now and again.

But not this week. I'm set. In addition to my normal routine, I will make sure I have adrenal snacks throughout the day, and note any differences I feel. 

In case you're interested, my daily routine will now look like this:

10:00 AM: wake, 16 oz celery juice
10:25 AM: B12, Sovereign Silver, tinctures, Mary Ruth Organics AM (these are all taken individually about 30 sec apart from each other)
10:30 AM: Lemon water and morning supplements (NeuroMag, Mag Glycinate, 5 HTP, Curcumin, Ester C)
10:45 AM: Heavy Metals Detox Smoothie
12:30 PM: adrenal snack
2:00 PM: adrenal snack (this one is most likely my lunch salad) and supplements (l-lysine, ester C)
3:00 PM: B12 and sovereign silver
3:30PM: adrenal snack
5:00 PM: adrenal snack (most likely my dinner salad with cooked potato) and supplements (l-lysine, Ester C)
6:30 PM: adrenal snack
8:00 PM: adrenal snack and tinctures
9:30 PM: adrenal snack and bedtime supplements (NeuroMag, Mag Glycinate, Ester C, Curcumin)
10:00 PM: Mary Ruth Organics PM multi

Yesterday was my first day. I thought it might be difficult since we were out at a friend's but it turned out not to be - when the alarm on my phone went off, I'd pull out an adrenal snack and make myself eat it. Yesterday I had two that were banana/lettuce/dates, two apple/celery/date, my smoothies (which counts because of the ingredients) and my salad.

I found it was sometimes difficult to eat because I wasn't yet feeling hungry, but they really kept me satiated all day and I didn't experience any cravings for other things, either. I did have much more consistent energy throughout the day and my thoughts were sharper.

Toward the end of the day I felt grumpy and irritated - having to do with where we are relocating, I think? Housing cost vs expectation, weather reality vs where we intended to live, things like that. But I voiced it rather than holding it in and lashing out, and that helped. I also asked my husband to rub my feet for confort and asked the angels for help, and that helped , too.

I slept fairly well but had active dreams. Today I feel sharp still, as is evidenced by my writing blog posts again. It seems that when I feel a bit more cloudy I tend to not blog at all.

celery, the migraine miracle

The other day we had a very long day driving around and looking at houses and neighborhoods, trying to get a feel for the area and what's available within it. I drove the whole time, as fociusing on driving seems to keep motion sickness at bay.  As we were getting to the end of the day, I could feel that familiar "I've pushed myself too far" feeling, and my body was letting me know it had had enough. My head started to pound and my energy began to drop fast. 

I'd packed a cooler of snacks: fresh fruits, dates, celery, Larabars - so we would get through the day. I'd just eaten an apple to get my glucose back up and feed my brain, but I could still feel the headache lurking, the fatigue coming, that "pushed too far" feeling. That impending crash was coming, and my head was pounding. 

Then I remembered what Anthony William, the Medical Medium wrote in the book "Life-Changing Foods" and also in a Facebook post that the mineral salts in celery are good for headaches and migraines. I picked out a celery stick and two dates to make it a complete adrenal snack - an apple, celery and two dates is the one I always remember easily, even though he posted a list of  16 Snacks for Adrenal Fatigue.

When I finished the celery and dates, the headache was GONE. Yes, THAT FAST! Energy was restored and I felt good again, like I could keep going. No crash! No fatigue, no headache. Again it was like a miracle. 

 I am so grateful for the information Anthony William shares in his books, on his radio shows and in his blog posts about healing foods and how we can heal. I've been on my own healing journey for a year, and I find I'm still learning new things all the time. I like to be immersive, reading the Facebook groups for support and answers to questions we all have, re-reading the books to find things I might have missed the first time, listening to past radio shows for new gems, and the live ones every Monday. He also has a healing path program to further solidify the information in the first book, and of course, social media accounts - not just of his, but of so many of us who are healing chronic "autoimmune" illnesses through using the information he shares. My Instagram is pupulated by stories of healing, delicious plant-based recipes and colorful phtos of healing foods. It makes me happy just to look at it.

 The information and how well it all works still blows my mind sometimes, even though I am healing from it. Like the other day. In the past, I'd have come home from a day like that with a migraine, needed​ to sleep in a dark room for several hours, crashed hard. But instead I was energetic, I could have kept going, and I was pain-free because I had the healing foods, the information on what they did, and I used them. Thank you, Anthony and Spirit, for all you share so that we can heal. I owe my life to you.

And for anyone who might be new here somehow - I am in no way affilliated or paid or compensated in any way by Anthony William and any of his associates. The reward I get from sharing this is that if just one person reads his book and uses the information and begins to heal, holy moly is that huge. Too many people are suffering needlessly on this planet, and it there is any way my suffering and the healing of it can help another human, it will have been worth it. Getting my life back from a chronic illness I thought might actualy end up killing me has been the greatest miracle I could imagine.

Continuing to find new ways to use and refine how I use the healing foods to help myself heal even more is the icing on the cake. 

MM Raw Day 31

Food:
20 oz celery juice
lemon water all day
Smoothie: papaya, frozen mango, frozen strawberries, frozen wild blueberries, banana, spinach, water, d-Ribose, liquid ionic zinc, quercetin
Snack: apricot, banana, honeydew melon, mango, sugar snap peas
Salad: lettuce, cucumber, carrot, apple, red pepper, dressing (avocado, lime, cilantro, garlic powder, onion powder, salt)
Baked sweet potato with red pepper, onion, lime, sauce (avocado, coconut milk, cumin, salt, lime)

Still so tired, still craving heavier foods at night. Today I got a headache around 6:30 or so and ended up taking a nap to relieve it, which worked. I also asked the angels for their help getting rid of it before I went to sleep. slept maybe an hour and it was mostly gone. I'm not sure what caused it, but it felt like lack of sleep. 

MM Raw Day 30

I'm so tired...

I feel like in my dreams last night I was doing some big work with the angels...I wish I could remember it. 

Food: 

20 oz celery juice
Smoothie: mango, 2 bananas, frozen wild blueberries, strawberries, spinach, d-Ribose, water
Salad: lettuce, cabbage, carrot, cucumber, sprouts, sugar snap peas, apple, dressing (avocado, orange juice, garlic powder, cilantro, onion powder, chives, salt)
Snack: banana, apricot, vegan bread (NOT AGAIN)
Salad: lettuce, tomato, carrot, cucumber, sugar snap peas, apple, dressing (avocado, orange juice, garlic powder, onion powder, salt)

I think it might be time to be incorporating some actual recipes. 1-2 a week maybe. Kiddo wants me to bake him some bread  I found a vegan bread recipe (no eggs) and am going to try that. It uses xanthan gum, but I found a list of possible substitutes, so I'm going to use one of those. I hope it works!

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I baked vegan bread for my son, and it rose WAY too much, spilled over the edges, and made a giant mess. I baked it anyway and it was rather a disaster, but it tasted wonderful and I will try to do it again. In the meanwhile, it's so good that my son has been eating it anyway. I made the mistake of eating some, too - it WAS really good. But in flavor only - it did NOT affect me in a good way. My thoughts turned a bit dark, my anxiety ramped up, and my body felt really heavy and soooo tired. It is SO hard to remember these things when I have some distance from them, but perhaps documenting them will help me some.

I will make the bread again, only for my son, and I will WATCH it rise so it doesn't over rise. The good news is we KNOW how good this bread tastes, so if I can just do it RIGHT, he will have really good bread. (All ingredients approved by me, nothing weird added. I even replaced the xanthan gum with flax meal and it worked out fine. 

MM Raw Day 29

Technically the cleanse is over but I really like keeping track of this whole process, so I'm going to keep going. 

Food: 
vegansafe B12
16 oz celery juice
lemon water all day
Smoothie: frozen wild blueberries, mango, nectarine, banana, spinach, kale, water, ionic zinc
Honeydew melon
Salad: cabbage, apple, carrot, cucumber, dressing (avocado, cilantro, garlic powder, onion powder, ginger powder, salt)
Smaller smoothie: strawberries, mango, frozen wild blueberries, honey, water
Sweet potato fries
Bite of beef burger which I seemed to react to
Cod fillet with ghee - also didn't feel so great

Had the third arborist come out today to do a bid, and he didn't make the best impression. He said I'd never find anyone to write that letter (I already have) to my bank. He'd have to charge a consulting fee to do it, and he couldn't do That AND take the job to fix it, because it would be a "conflict of interest". Also he spit in my grass no less than four times right in front of me. It was super gross and to me, like spitting on my carpet. Um yeah, not very professional. He'll email me a quote. It doesn't matter, I already liked the second guy so much I'm hiring him. He gave me all sorts of free advice and I already trust him.

Emailed a realtor to come out before we hire the tree guy, so they can tell us exactly what they think we ought to have him do.

Medical Medium Cleanse: Celery Juice and Raw Food Day 28

As discussed in my original post, I'm documenting the effects of drinking 16 oz celery juice every morning (and transitioning back to raw fruits and veggies). Today is Day 28.

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Food:
18 oz celery juice
lemon water all day
Smoothie: mango, frozen wild blueberries, strawberries, banana, kale, water, supplements
Salad: lettuce, cabbage, apple, cucumber, carrot, dressing (orange juice, avocado, garlic power, onion powder, chives, salt)
Snacks: banana
Salad: cabbage, mango, carrot, cucumber, dressing (avocado, garlic powder, onion powder, salt, powdered ginger, chives)
Red potato fries

Well, I guess this is technically "The Last Day" of this cleanse, but really, it's just the beginning. I'm probably going to do the cleanse again, full version, as outlined in the book. I did a modified version here. (2 salads a day and cooked potato at night half the time - oh, and more avocado than is called for.) In the original version, night is a sort of raw veggie soup, there is nothing cooked, the dressing is 1/2 avocado, juice of 2 oranges, and the other ingredients. I tried it that way and while it's good, it's not AS good as just the avocado blended with the other stuff, so I went back to it. Baby steps.

I'm still learning a lot about all of the aspects of the Medical Medium's specific protocol and why, and I'm still trying to figure out how to do the heavy metal detox portion of the cleanse without harming myself or taking myself back to the state I was in before I started eating this way again. I'm making my way back to health and while it might be a little slow, it's exponentially faster than it was before, and I'm delighted with my progress. I know there is more work to do, and I'm doing it - and I finally know I am going in the right direction for me. I mean, look at the results!

~ The swelling in my feet has gone down significantly. 

~ I have actual energy to do things in my day. 

~ I'm getting stronger and stronger. 

~ There is less pain in my back.

~ I can stand for longer periods of time, and walk for longer. 

~ I can leave the house without a mask - that is huge. 

~ Leaving the house doesn't mean days of recovery afterward. 

~ My anxiety levels have dropped so significantly I feel like I can function again (make phone calls, meet with people, make plans outside of my house). 

~ I am able to do some level of physical labor, like working in the yard. 

~ My brain fog has lessened dramatically.

~ I can bend over and do things much more, without feeling my heart race and my BP change.

~ I am present with my family again. 

~ I have been able to do physical things to contribute to my family again. 

~ I feel hopeful. 

~ I've been much much more positive and upbeat in general. ~ I've been a lot less moody and irritable. 

~ My son is excited because now we can plan things like going to the beach and to festivals. 

Got two quotes from certified arborists today and that felt great - it was just me, explaining things to them, and walking them around the property. It was REALLY hot - 92 degrees, and I did fine (heat would usually cause a mast cell reaction). Everything about that was amazing, and I'm excited to hire one of them and have them do the work, once the third guy comes out tomorrow.

I *almost* went to the grocery store today, but I couldn't convince my son that it was a great idea, and I wasn't super attached to going, so it didn't happen. But tomorrow I might, because I need yeast for the gluten-free bread I'm baking. And I want to just bake it, not wait until my husband gets home and can run to the store. Because I CAN!

I'm feeling pretty darn good about things right now. 

If you're interested in reading the Medical Medium book, it can be found here.

Medical Medium Cleanse: Celery Juice and Raw Food Day 27

As discussed in my original post, I'm documenting the effects of drinking 16 oz celery juice every morning (and transitioning back to raw fruits and veggies). Today is Day 27.

Day 1     Day 2     Day 3     Day 4     Day 5     Day 6     Day 7     Day 8     Day 9     Day 10     Day 11     Day 12     Day 13     Day 14     Day 15     Day 16     Day 17     Day 18     Day 19     Day 20     Day 21     Day 22     Day 23     Day 24     Day 25     Day 26

Food:
18 oz celery juice
lemon water all day
Smoothie: mango, frozen wild blueberries, strawberries, banana, kale, water, supplements
Salad: lettuce, red pepper, cucumber, apple, sugar snap peas, cherry tomatoes, dressing (avocado, dill, chives, salt, garlic powder, onion powder)
Snacks: 2 bananas, honeydew melon
Salad: lettuce, cabbage, grapes, cucumber, red pepper, dressing (avocado, parsley, chives, salt, garlic powder, onion powder)
Snack: mango

Last night again my brain switched into PTSD mode and fixated on playing the tape of Kiernen doing the float at iFly and hating it. He won;t let me show the video to anyone ever, but he had a terrible time and couldn't breathe, and all I could think was, "Why didn't I see it? How did I not know?" And my brain just replayed it over and over and wouldn't let me go to sleep.

But despite my terrible night's sleep, I got dressed today and I ventured out of the house again. We went to Naomi's Organic Farm Supply and got some more herbs and soil to plant them in. And when I got home I finally put my kitchen herb garden together in the planter I bought. It's a little whiffy from the soil, but once it settles down and folds in more together I'll take photos. I FINALLY have a kitchen herb garden IN my kitchen! I DID have one outside before, and the chives are still going strong, so half of them are in my planter now, because they'll be coming on the road with us. I planted parsley, cilantro, thyme, dill, basil and chives, and it's a lovely little herb garden.

Tomorrow, quotes from REAL professionals to fix the damage done by the fakers. 

If you're interested in reading the Medical Medium book, it can be found here.

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Medical Medium Cleanse: Celery Juice and Raw Food Day 26

As discussed in my original post, I'm documenting the effects of drinking 16 oz celery juice every morning (and transitioning back to raw fruits and veggies). Today is Day 26.

Day 1     Day 2     Day 3     Day 4     Day 5     Day 6     Day 7     Day 8     Day 9     Day 10     Day 11     Day 12     Day 13     Day 14     Day 15     Day 16     Day 17     Day 18     Day 19     Day 20     Day 21     Day 22     Day 23     Day 24     Day 25

Food:
22 oz celery juice
lemon water all day
Smoothie: mango, frozen wild blueberries, frozen strawberries, banana, kale, water
Snacks: fresh blueberries from my yard, honeydew melon, yellow watermelon (not a fan)
Salad: lettuce, red pepper, cucumber, apple, sugar snap peas, cherry tomatoes, dressing (avocado, ginger, salt, garlic powder, onion powder)

Today I did two "big deal" things that pretty much amazed me. 

The first, I went to iFly with my son and husband, and even encountered a couple of scents, but I made it - WITHOUT my mask! I haven't left the house in months, and it's ALWAYS with my mask if I have. I did well, and felt good afterwards, too.

When I got home, I did about a half hour of yard work, which included trimming and even sawing branches - I was huffing and puffing after the sawing, but I just needed to rest and I was still okay. After some food and rest, I was good. This is just amazing me, still - I really am coming back, it's fantastic!

We spent time outside, and while my husband and son jumped on the trampoline, I picked SO many berries from our blueberry bushes! It's the biggest haul we've had in years! My son delightedly ate pretty much the whole bowl on his own - he loves fresh-picked fruit!

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Of course, as they day progressed, my body got stiffer and more sore, so I guess I need to be wary of that and careful, because still with the not being conditioned. I kind of hurt myself there. And the lack of sleep caught up to me, because I got tired really early, too.

I'll become conditioned again, I will. 

If you're interested in reading the Medical Medium book, it can be found here.

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